Another Friday Night in the house. Awesome.

Yippee, another Friday night with my mom in the crib? Priceless. The day started off with a text from my love, waking me up. (If it wasn't for him i think i would have been LATE, for real). Did the regular..Shower, Make up, etc. you know. School was alright. One of my teachers signed me up for this Poetry Slam on the 14th. (Doubt I'm going) It'll be great i guess but...NO THANKS. I am not standing in front of about..100 people listening to what i wrote?! NO SIR. Lunch was garbage today, I soo wanted Chinese food but they wouldn't deliver (I was tight!) So I debated if I should go and have "Cafeteria" lunch...naaaahhh. Couldn't do it! (Foreal!) lmao. But let's not go there.

This boy had the BOLDNESS to text me some bulls$%^ today. OMG. I'm in study hall minding my OWN and i get a text saying, "You said I was a bum ass nigga?! I should have my nigga smack you"...Like you should have seen my face. (Was he drunk?) No Ma'am he DEF wasn't talking to me like that. I had to mediate that real quick and let him know who he was impending with (FOREAL).

After school I got a text from my sister. (It's been a while since we chilled.) I caught her up to somethings, like me applying to certain schools, My writing in the paper, and some other things..you know. Didn't tell her about my 3.0 though. THAT I feel I want to keep to myself for a while. It just feels too good to let just ANYBODY know (if you know what I mean). We hung out for a little while and stuff, and she left for this party. Which I'm ooh soo UPSET that she went out and I'm stuck here in the house with MOM running her mouth. GOODNESS. (Sorry had a moment there.)

But yeah, I have SATs tomorrow. Gosh, I'm nervous. I studied...(SOMEWHAT) but you know I'm not stressing too much. I think that's all for now..I should be doing my hair as we speak but I really don't know why I'm NOT.. hm, check back tomorrow loves. xoxo

Honor Roll baby.

Soooo yes, I've finally got my 3.0! FIRST time on the honor roll OMG! i haven't really told anybody except for the husband (Hey Justin boo) only because I know he's the only one who would take it seriously & be proud. But besides that, my day? has been...alright you can say. I woke up LATE! OMG. Let me tell you! So me & the husband got off the phone kind of early last night (I passed out) so I went to sleep as usual. The alarm wakes me up at 6:00 a.m. I hit the snooze button without thinking..& the next thing i know it's 7:13! I ALMOST broke my neck going down the stairs. But I must admit that sleep was GOOD. One of those random Thursdays, you know..

I told my best friend about Blogger.com today, because I showed her my page so she's going to be a new member ;o) ! As for right now? I'm just chilling as usual watching television (I really don't know WHAT I'm watching but it's on.) Currently missing the hubby as we speak...he's at church at the moment. OMG I love him sooo much, like real talk..he's the one of the best things that I can say has ever happened in my life. He's so different from the rest. I just want to be there for him a little more but I know there isn't much I can physically do if I'm all the way up here. (Yes, he's out of state...for the time being). The whole thing with his father and all, I just feel like there is alot more I can do for him? I don't know but you get what I'm trying to say (hopefully).

Speaking of Father's my mother and I were having some type of conversation in the car today and she asked me do I forgive easily and I kept it real and said, "No". I can't say that I hold grudges but I can't find it in my heart to tell someone I forgive them after they've hurt me. Especially my father at that. I can honestly say no man has ever hurt me they way he has. I was an option to my father and he wasn't there when I needed him the most. So for me to tell him that I've forgiven him would be, out of the question. I just feel that I can't say something I don't mean from my heart out my mouth. Feel me? I don't know if that made quite sense but yes, those are my current feelings.

Looking forward for Friday, honestly it doesn't feel like a Friday tomorrow. ONE MORE WEEK UNTIL MY 18TH BIRTHDAY & 1 MONTH ANNIVERSARY. Yes, I'm soo excited but patient so I can wait.

Currently listening to Heaven Sent By Keyshia Cole. ;o)

On a more personal level...let's get to know me a little bit better

I tend to be more open writing then speaking, so I think this blog will be a really great notional. I tend to keep alot of things inside and some people tend to misunderstand my being. I come from a family where i didn't have many people that seemed to care around me, so i tend to bottle everything up. Now that I'm turning 18 in a few days I've realized that little baby games aren't cute anymore. This doesn't mean that I'll be an open book to anyone who says "Hi" to me down the street but i am aware that not EVERYONE can read my mind. I never really realized how much I've grown in a matter of MONTHS. How much maturity I've profited. Each and everyday i recognize the little changes in my life, from how I spoke to my friends and elders to the stupidest things i use to do with my time. I now realize that the past 3 years in high school i took as a complete JOKE and if were to go back in time i WOULDN'T. Yesterday has made me a BETTER person TODAY. I feel that I'm turning the page in life and that I've finally found my incentive.

A rained out Tuesday

Today was definitely one of those days nobody wanted to get up out of bed. I woke up earlyyy around 5:19 a.m. thinking DAMN, you have 41 minutes till the alarm goes off AND it's raining?! Rain in the morning = GREAT sleep. So I was thinking what kind of excuse i can pull while i dug my face in my pillows. The warmth of my bed was just sooooo good and just the fact that i had to get up and spend 7 hours in a building with about 17,000 other teenagers, damn. I eventually got to school and it was an okay day. Texted hubby a little bit (Hey Raymond) and then just flowed with the rest of the day. Of course the first thought when I got home was changing my clothes and hopping in bed but NOPE, as always mom ambushes me with a "We're going out"..damn. I felt like crap, for real and i DEF didn't want to be outside in the rain, in a car with her talking her ass off for about 45 minutes, but ay. Got home about 2 hours later and just chilled. I made a vow not to get up or do anything for ANYBODY, too tired and it just wasn't my day to begin with, wasn't feeling it! But now i'm just ready to take it down and talk to hubby till..whenever i pass out..Random thought? I love him. Point blank.