Amnesty?

First off, i want to say that this whole time changing situation is messing me up lmao (FOREAL)..waking up to DARKNESS? No sir! 'Cause I will GO BACK to sleep..you feel me? Anyways today was kind of a bit staggering to be honest. As I parked the car in the school parking lot, I was looking over my stuff before I walked in to know exactly what to give to my counselor before he sent all of my college stuff in and I totally forgot I had to call the lawyer first thing in the morning! So I called him..(as always, HE DIDN'T PICK UP)..so I left him a message addressing it was an ABSOLUTE emergency, but ay ..still haven't heard from him.

After school I came home to my mom telling me that she seen Mirvy at Stop&Shop. Let me take you back 2 years ago. Me and Mirvy use to be BEST friends, hung out together, went out to lunch together, etc. I'm telling you we did EVERYTHING together, she was almost like my sister. At the time i was dating this guy named Ace. We dated for about 6 months, i later found out that he lived NEXT DOOR to her, literally. After him and I broke up..she asked me if it was alright to talk to him. (Remind you this is TWO days AFTER me and him broke up, she has the nerve to EVEN ask me this.) I don't even know how she would ask me something like that, after I'm the one whose just been hurt. She should have been on MY side. After I found out that she liked him and she was just only WAITING for us to break up to snacth him up I totally cut her off. I didn't feel the need to cuss her out or anything like that I just let her be. For you to be my best friend and even ASK ME something like that, there was no response for me to give. After a good while after the summer, Junior year later started and we didn't even look in each others way. Towards the middle of the year we fought, and I can honestly say that that's one of the things I'll probably NEVER forget in my life, she completely humiliated me. (I know this is the WORLD WIDE WEB, but I'm not going to lie on here and say, "yes, i beat her up") No, she beat me up and I can honestly admit it. I was so blind that I couldn't even tell the jealousy she had for me. All the so called "friends" she started to hang out with told her what to do. I ended up going to the hospital for head injuries (yes, i had a concussion) and she had to pay the doctor bills. (Big mess). I honestly COULD NOT forgive her after that. She soon had to pay $2,000 and got expelled from school. It was the last I heard of her. My mother seen her at Stop&Shop today working, and she had the audacity to say "Hi" to my mother...like what?! She apologized to my mother for all the embarrassment she made me go through and that she said she made the wrong choice in friends. That coming from her meant alot. I think I honestly say I forgive her after that. I realized for me to forgive doesn't take much. Shes now going to school 2-5 pm at this alternative school and she works at Stop&Shop to pay her parents back all the money. My heart kind of went out to her.

P.s. - Me and my brother talk again & he's coming for my birthday on friday :). till then bloggers, xoxo.

A bit much?

One word: LABORIOUS. what? OMG. I went to take the SATs Saturday morning, for 5 HOURS. pssh. NEVER AGAIN. lmao (foreal). I was soooo high-strung. This test can make me or BREAK me. Enough about that though. I got home late around 9ish cause i went out afterwards to chill & whatnot, and I get some letter in the mail saying "i have four credits when i need FIVE." WTF? ughhhhhhh, like the day couldn't get any worse? Like i didn't have enough on my mind already? Cool beans (stole that from Ray, btw). I literally shut down. Closed my phone and went in my room. Too much for one day. So NOW.. i have to GO to my lawyers office on Monday or WHENEVER he decides to pick up his phone and get a note...before the 7Th or i can't graduate. GRAND. Exactly what i needed after a day like that. I'm in a bit of a clasp. OH WELL. I'm moving past it sorta.

On to Sunday? I didn't go to church. Got a call from my hubby (Hey Ray), saying "What do I see when I look in the mirror?".. i was like what?! He told me to make a vision. Where do I see myself in 5 years? Hm. I see my self graduating from NHS in 2009. Graduating from BC in 2013 and marrying Ray, and going to AI: in ATL. In 2016 I'll have my first child. With my Degree in Journalism (hopefully) I'll write for some TOP newspaper or with my degree in Interior Design I'll be a wedding planner, better yet I can do both...hm maybe looking at a BIG house but we'll get to all that later..

Looking forward to the end of this week, somewhat. My birthday is on Friday and yeah, not sure yet of whats going down. For now I'm off this, xoxo.